Just a manic thursday? :o

The day started with me wakeing up and turning on the screen of my PC. Not seeing anything intressting I just turned off the whole PC.

Bafore going to school I left a message for my father that he can build in the new graphic card I just got this morning (Nvidia 9800).

I was somehow kinda sad due being rejected by the girl I loved.. was my mistake anyways so I shouldn't really care.. dumb human emotions and hormones!

Right now, while I was writing anything of this on a piece of paper, we had english lessons. It's really booring. I have nothing to do. I finished anything. I'm the best of my school in english anyways. Even better then some of the teachers. :D

Back to the english hour.. some guys are being really annoying right now. They're obviously in their Puberty.

I hit'd my Puberty when I was about twelve years old and it ended when I got fifteen. I'm happy that it ended, very happy.

I'm acting really mature in school. Mature and serious.

Okay, about nine am. We're changing the class room and teacher. Next two hours; Math and German. We will have a math test and I don't really have a good feeling about it yet I need to get trough it! I just wonder how it turns out..

First hour was german and we just ended the lesson. We got homework: Trying with a mate to re create a scene from a text that we read together. That's all for tomorrow.

Next lesson: Math.

But now we have a 15 minute break. I spend most of my time with just wrriting anything on a piece of paper.

I'm sitting alone, listening Death Metal and wrriting stuff about what just happened before.. some guys wanted to read it but they started laughing how ugly I write. D:

The best thing; some girls are sitting right next to me, god knows why, and started to listen their gay hip-hop and rap stuff. God damned.

The bell rings, gotta go to class and write the test!

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Math test completed! I don't have a good feeling because I didn't manage to make six tasks. Damn it.

After school I was going home asap to test my Graphic card. I got an awesome motherboard with a gay graphic card that's why I bought a new one.

I tested it with team fortress. 120+ frames per second on an empty server. 50-60+ FPS on an 24/24 server. This. Shit. Is. Epic.

I spend the rest of my day playing games...

You ruined my god damn week. Thank you.

So! My day just started so great. I came to school, met some friends, we talked and of all sudden this girl appears.

It's that new girl that I really started to like. God damn and how sexy she is (yet she refuses it).

She always hugs some of my friends (mostly just other girls) and me. But it's itressting that she's hugging me like almost 10 seconds longer than anyone other. It seems like she enjoys it, that's what I do.

Oh well. Silly me, I tought that she maybe WILL fall in love with me. Even some of my friends tought it.

The part that ruined my day and the rest of my week:

Via MSN she told me that she already has a "girlfriend".

Yes, she's bisexual. So intressting that I just love her more and more yet I'm very dissapointed. For god's sake I don't want to be just "friends" with her! I want to be something special.

And she told me that she probably will chose me as her next friend when she breaks up with her girlfriend, like I would be something to just "get".

I don't, and never will know what girls think, how they think and why they think this way.

I'm 16 anyways, I shouldn't care about girls that much in my age. Most of them act like they're on steroids anyways.. fucking puberty.